hello, i miss you guys.
yay to blog revival! and yay to wanjoo :D
i know it's stupid to say this now, but who wrote the september02 entry? last night or two nights ago i was feeling awful and i came here and every word in that entry was so pervasively what i felt. it's really bad to be harbouring regrets from a year ago or more than a year ago. i feel really immature, and i also think that i quite possibly screwed up in 2006 more than anyone would give me credit for. like wth? i didn't even hand over properly. and then 2007 happened. sigh was talking to joey about this today, like the first time i've talked about it. all the little regrets from last year and having let people down (whether they know it or not) and also having been horrible to myself sometimes.
i wonder sometimes why it's so hard to let go of this, or even talk about it. and i know that when i asked myself this last year it was just because so much was expected all the time that there was really no space for weakness. i'm serious, this is like cliche but it's like. when you're expected to be fulfilling your duties you can't just yell that you are screwing your mind up damn badly in the process - i guess.
and denise, the richard capt, and i were talking about responsibility in secondary school once. she thought that everyone who burnt out a little in secondary school takes some time to bounce back. i believe her, i guess. maybe it takes time to trust yourself again? feels like something along those lines anyway. alright this shall be all from me for now. and i will eventually learn to let go of all those regrets and inadequacies that eat at me sometimes. much love, everyone.
anyway, seet i love your tag. it should be immortalized:
fiel, it feels like forever. no one ever tells you that forever feels like home.
And when you're there
Together we'll sing again
