hey everyone. it's mee. pat. haha haven't come here for ages. partly because it just reminds me how much i miss the board and you guys :( but after reading the list of PITs (aka OUR little twos) i thought i needed to pop by our blog again. sorry i know i haven't been going down to the room like i used to. i feel guilty because i've been trying really hard to put all these emotions and memories behind me, so i won't feel bad. but to me that meant trying to forget about the board, about you. ahh sounds so selfish :( and i'm sorry.
not sure how everyone is doing. but when i read the list of PITs, i couldn't help but feel shocked (again). it's so odd, i mean i've heard all these changes that rgspb's going through. and each and every time i still feel as shocked. i mean firstly, it's THIRTY of them. and i read nard's email about the selection process, but i still couldn't help but feel rather appalled at some of the names that were listed down there. ahah suddenly i think i shouldn't have opened that file :P sigh. oh well. i mean i know it really has nothing to do with me anymore. but i still don't know why i feel so attached to everything that's going on :(
your batchtalk's going to be in a few hours, then it's your HGM. all of which i am missing out on :( sigh. anyway, i hope that if any of you guys are feeling what i am feeling about the list, that you will put behind all grudges or previous impressions. because as it is, they are already in. and obviously if the teachers + SLics + VANS etc agreed that they had potential, they can't be that bad i suppose. and even IF they are, i'm sure they DO have good points. as for their bad ones, it's the job of miraculous PB (esp FIEL as their sec4s) to make them learn and improve.
haha i mean i myself was such a total weird idiot when i entered pb. amandazain fan club?! hello?! ahah. okay. yes but thanks to all of YOU :D and fwah and fianza, i changed so much (i hope i am better now) so you never know you see.. hehe. hey when PIT camp comes round could i pleaaase come :D for a short while i guess. whenever you're doing any nice items for them. sigh so exciting. blah you know i recently went for this talk organised by the national youth council. the speaker was mr richard goll, and he managed to "reform" his small city in the us. it was basically about youth empowerment. i thin it was like 60% of the youths (under 18s, unlike s'pore's 15-35yrs old) were involved in town decision making. thought it was quite cool. and then he talked about a lot of changes that they went through. and i realised that a LOT of the terms they were using was what mrchu talked about during my last talk with you guys. the whole paradigm change talk thing. change agents and all. even RANKING! did you know that they do that in the civil service?! it's an official thing. everyone is ranked. even our principals are ranked. well that made me realise that you guys are really headed BIG man. hahah. even though a lot of our old traditions might be lost or phased out, the pure basic essence of pb's existence- to serve and to lead, will still be there.
okay enough blabbering from me. haha ge i also got slammed by my friends a while ago, even as a non-prefect. they said i behaved and thought too much like a prefect. (which was true, heh. i couldn't let go) oh well. they'll never understand, and that's what makes every single one of you so special :D
i hope that amidst all this, you will all remember to be HAPPY. because at the end of the day, everything will be meaningless if you aren't happy about what you are doing.
pat misses you a lot :( take care everyone. say hi to the little twos for me (:
And when you're there
Together we'll sing again
