save tonightand fight the break of dawncause tomorrowtomorrow i'll be `g o n ei feel like a tap, can't stop crying. then again "tap" is just "pat" spelt backwards... i really don't know what to do now. my parents are really driving me up the wall. they treat me like i'm some psycho mental patient. the tone..the words..everything. it's just really really hard for me now. the distance btwn me and my parents has always been quite far. i can't even talk to them now cos they're in their "i'm the doctor ur the patient let's cure you" mood. i guess it's pretty hard to understand from there ...
i really don't want to go. i really don't.
my dad's started making fantastic plans. for my training and all. i'm going to feel so empty without pb under my list of commitments. sigh then i was thinking maybe i could go join sln or sth later on then at least i can make sure that they don't like screw up any pb stuff or anything. heh. then i realised i prob won't be allowed to take up anything in the first place. and it's not like i'm going to be much more free without pb, since my training's gonna be upped like 3 or 4 times. i hope it's worth it.
i love you guys so so much. looking at the pics below the post has never been more painful.
i don't know if it's a good idea to go against my dad cos he probably won't listen, he never does. and also, when i told dee about this, she smsed back stuff like "i understand", "i'd do that if i were him too", "sometimes what you want isn't what you need". sigh so i'm really really lost now.
it's just really hard right now to IMAGINE myself...as a normal student. just to imagine. wait till it comes to the real thing.
bleagh i'm hoping there will be reasonable number at monday's batch mtg.
e103, 0700hr. come pleaseeee. thanks.
this is not happening... it's not supposed to. it never was.
And when you're there
Together we'll sing again
